Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in isntthatfabulos' LiveJournal:

Thursday, March 27th, 2008
Mar0308	HELP! So, I got into my two top schools.. but I never imagined I would. Bentley was my inital top choice that I set my heart on, becuase I didnt think I could get into Brandeis, my ultimate dream school. I feel as though I cant turn down Brandeis, just because of all that itis to me, getting into my dream school against all odds (I'm 29th in my class, my SAT's arent so hot, and I know I got in on myinterview because I'm way into community service..) Financial Aid is essentially the same. nil. No scholarship, gahh. AH, the hard part is, Bentley is interviewing me for a $7.500 renewable scholarship for community service. I think I'm going to get it, I've been kissing butt for over a year now. I wasnt supposed to get into Brandeis. Gahh. Advice, anybody go to either school?
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Monday, January 22nd, 2007
Jan0107	We have to stop defending and start letting eachother in. In every heart there is a room A sanctuary safe and strong To heal the wounds from lovers past Until a new one comes along I spoke to you in cautious tones You answered me with no pretense And still I feel I said too much My silence is my self defense And every time I've held a rose It seems I only felt the thorns And so it goes, and so it goes And so will you soon I suppose But if my silence made you leave Then that would be my worst mistake So I will share this room with you And you can have this heart to break And this is why my eyes are closed It's just as well for all I've seen And so it goes, and so it goes And you're the only one who knows So I would choose to be with you That's if the choice were mine to make But you can make decisions too And you can have this heart to break And so it goes, and so it goes And you're the only one who knows Current Music: And So It Goes - Billy Joel
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Tuesday, December 26th, 2006
Dec1206	friends only Hey, Kelsey's gone friends only. Comment here, in hopes that I figure out how to add you. :)
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Monday, December 25th, 2006
Dec1206	merry christmas. Its been a good day today. Really. A good Christmas all around. Especially considering my terrible mood yesterday. Yesterday I was in the worst mood ever. Really. I dont know why. I think the whole nothing seems like Christmas thing really was getting to me, and I treated everyone like crap. I feel bad about that. I was just miserable. And then last night Tori and I watched Frosty the Snowman, and I sware, Frosty has like, magic powers, because it made me so very happy and Christmas was back again, and I was excited. And Tori and I were up late laughing and having silly girl talk and tickling eachother. And sure, that sounds totally retarded, but my sister is the best. Really. Tori has this infectious way of making everything so much better. I am in debt to that little girl. And Tori and I sware we heard Santa come last night. Bells and all. Shes only going to be like this for so many more years. I feel so blessed to have this believer in my life. She makes a believer out of me. I got some really good stuff for Christmas. Clothes.. the DaVinci Code, black pearls and a beautiful necklace from gram.. and my favorite gift? a journal. :) And me and my Mom went for a walk down my grandmother's street, and it was warm enough for me to wear flip flops, and I danced in the middle of the street. It was just fantastic. And my Mom had to work tonight, and we were all bummed out. Well, she called to tell us she won $200 on a scatch ticket. So now Tori and I are watching the Santa Clause, and I just feel giddy inside. I love Christmas. Its come, and its going, and I love every bit of it. I just want to make it stop and wait a few minutes. I just want these moments to stay. ( love. ) Current Music: The Santa Clause!
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Saturday, December 23rd, 2006
Dec1206	every hair on my body has got a thing for this place The cure for anything is saltwater— sweat, tears, or the sea. Tonight, My parents took me to Onset (which is my favorite place) And I got to walk around a used bookstore and we went to Marc Anthony's and got my favorite pizza And then I got to walk the beach. ( beautyandthebeach. ) My pants are wet with water, And I have sand between my toes- And I've never really felt more alive. "Oh empty my heart, I have to make room for this feeling; so much bigger than me." Current Music: cant take it in - imogen heap
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Saturday, May 27th, 2006
May0506	Boy. BOY I just want a boy who I can run through the sprinkler with. We can sit on my front steps and eat cheeseburgers and drink smoothies. We'll cook together, and when he's sick, I'll make him double chocolate chunk cookies, and chicken noodle soup. He'll call me before I go to bed, and sing to me. We'll go on dates to all my favorite places, like the zoo, and the aquarium, and the paw sox. He'll let me splurge for lunch some days, and we'll always buy two different desserts and share them. I'll teach him the secret to good cheesecake. He'll like my cheesy poetry, and he wont mind that I cant make up my mind. He'll tickle me, and even when I tell him to stop, he won’t. He'll hold my hand wherever we go, but know when I need my space. We'll try to do homework, but end up kissing instead. We’ll read the same books, and then talk about them. He'll play with my hair, and I'll mess with his. We'll look at the stars together, and make wishes together, and make up the words to songs we don’t know. I'll make him old-fashioned mix tapes, and he'll keep them on his nightstand and listen to them before he goes to bed. We'll take all sorts of stupid pictures together, and buy corny frames to put them in. Our inside jokes will be crazy, and impossible to explain. We'll watch the Red Sox together, and he'll understand that I have to throw things at the TV sometimes, but he'll make me hold back my sneakers. I'll go to his games and cheer him on, and I'll wait for him after, to come give me a big sweaty hug. I'll like his big sweaty hugs. We’ll sing songs together, and we’ll have songs that we dance to together every time they come on. I’ll have a smile just for him, and he’ll know it. He'll leave me cute messages on my voice mail and write me old-fashioned love notes. We'll have code words. He'll open doors, and pull up the chair. We'll fight over stupid things, but make up quick. I just want a good boy, who'll treat me right. We'd have fun together. It doesn’t have to be anything extravagant. It doesn’t have to be anything excessive, or high strung. Its just love. That’s all. That’s all it has to be.
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Thursday, May 4th, 2006
May0506	You're Hiding. I still find you hidden in my geometry book. I wrote lyrics of happiness, and saddness. Up and down, through the pages of shapes and numbers. Is that all life is? Words, and meanings, hidden by numbers and figures? How shallow that is. How shallow and scary that is.
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Sunday, April 30th, 2006
Apr0406	The Red Sox lost today.. after two homeruns in the 9th. Lets just say I was a little ticked off. I hate that this line up cant seem to produce runs, when our pitchers go deep and pitch well. Schill went 6 strong innings, giving up 2 runs. You should get a W for a game like that. I applied to CVS today. It was an online application. It was pretty intense. Literally, 20 pages of like 10 personality questions. All of the answers were Strongly Disagree / Disagree / Agree / Strongly Agree So this one question said, "I've done my fair share of troublemaking." Now I felt like I should disagree with that. Since I havent. I'm not a troublemaker. I havent made any trouble. My Dad said agree. Like, you've already done your troublemaking. You wont do anymore. What do you think? Is disagreeing with that acceptable? I make myself worry too much I think. I want that job. I need that job. Badly. School tomorrow. Blah. I need something to look forward to. Hoby is in 40 days. Thank goodness. I'm so ready for school to end. Sox versus Yanks tommorrow. Should be amazing. I cant wait to boo Johnny Damon's sorry ass. Even if it is only from my couch. He'll hear me I'll be screaming so loud. I'm certain of it. :) Current Mood: tired Current Music: Dani California : Red Hot Chili Peppers
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Saturday, April 29th, 2006
Apr0406	I think he's right. "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore.Dream. Discover" -- MARK TWAIN
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